Doa seorang hamba

     Ya Allah,dugaan mu ini besar namun ku cuba tetapkan hatiku lebih besar daripada dugaanmu.Namun Ya Allah,tanpa bantuan mu ,siapa lah aku....sebesar mana usaha ku,tanpa redha dan keizinanmu,aku....takkan ke manan-mana.
     Ya Allah,sesungguhnya lemahnya aku terasa tanpa orang yang kusayangi di sisi.Aku juga tidak meminta kesempurnaan ,Ya Allah,namun apabila aku buka dan persembahkan hatiku untuk seseorang dalam apa2 bentuk sekali (rakan,kasih,kepercayaan), hanya satu ku pinta,kejujuran.Jauhkan makhluk yang berpura-puraan kerana aku tak mampu...kerana sejahat-jahat manusia,aku membenci manusia yang berpura-puraan.Ya Allah,aku bermohon perlindungan.Sejauh mana kakiku mampu ku berjalan,aku akan berjalan dengan izinmu,insyallah,namun jauhilah daripada manusia seperti ini,kerana ia membuatkan terasa seperti berjalan di atas kepingan kaca,menanti kaca menusuk kaki namun hakikatnya kita masih harus tersenyum.Aku memaafkan segala kejahatan hati manusia yang mendatangkan sihir padaku kerana mereka juga manusia yang disesatkan iblis,namun belum cukup kuat untukku...untuk manusia bersifat pura-puraan.Ya Allah,maka ,kuatkanlah hati ku...Ya Allah,hanya padamu aku meminta.Amin.

a lil story

   so...it is true that he will never ever able to be the 'right'.
    "Jika kita merasakan dia yang 'benar' ,namun saesungguhnya hanya Allah yang Maha Mengetahui siapa yang benar untukmu

BABIES.....a gift ...a bless

Hi, lately i've been sick so bad...to the most unimaginable point.So.. sick that at one point,sometimes,i need to get hold to someone.but also, lately i found new strength.I have been blessed by 10 new kids,magnificient 1.they r so cute,nampun namja.As if..and 'll be good if they were ours.New life has begin.and i am a new mommy of 10.I know and i promise be strong...it feels like they r new energy coming around when they r there...i hope i'll always be that strong.Would be good if they have their papa...but mommy will keep you safe eventhough without daddy nor papa....we will strive strong.

      mommy ,willl keep you safe....

sotry of my heart

  I was reading a friend status, "will it worth a wait?"...In my opinion,for her,yup...may be..probably....for me?will it be the same?Will it worth to wait for nampun namja?Did it can be call a 'wait' in my situation for nampun namja?
       I HAVE BEEN DOUBTING MYSELF AS LATELY...do I deserves to call it a wait?I know...as sooon his name pop,gladly and proudly I would say I loves him...but lately,it seems my heart get tempted by another creature...I hate to be tempted by him....coz how far could I control?i don't know..it feel like I am losing my control each time...I admits I am a lil bit under his spell..a lil......I hate to feel like a sinner.'ve been loving one particular guy for 5 years straight and by few words from that creature,i am tempted.I nearly fall.And I am calling myself loyal?That creature who resembles my father..have scared me a lot coz ....I resembles my mother the most.It is almost the same play all over again.