Separation:....the one end of the road

   Hi,hello.it's me again.I haven't been able to write in a few day.Today,i watch '2 DAYS 1 NIGHT' where Joo Won said his last good bye to his friends for the last time.Basically,it drown me in tears.I HATE IT.I HATE ANY KIND OF SEPARATION  from the beginning of time.It tear my heart especially it remind me a lot of friends  in my glorious era.
   
  i hate separation because it is so painful to get over it.It would be painful when the person we cared about eventually forgot about us.THAT IS HOW WORLD ARE CIRCLING...yet, i hate being forgotten the most.
      Lately, i finished my period of work for this year.It means, for some dongaengi i concern about,it would be goodbye for us.I hate it. i thought it won't matter so much as i know where i sits...but it hard.May be i told other how this kids are chaebol (come from money), truthfully, i don't care a bit.FOR ME,THEY ARE A MY LITTLE BROTHERS i always dream to have.For the outsider,they are elegant and graceful scholars but for me,they are my lil brother. sometimes,they are as cute as fluffy kitten like 'Park Soo ha', sometimes they are just like kindergarten boy like 'Rugbi ajusshi', sometimes they are cutely reckless, like 'angry boy'.

I like the most of them is how they work hardly as themself in anything they like,because for me,every cents isn't ours until we earn it ourself.Instead,how they work to make themself,the 'them' that they want s exactly impressed me.At the end of the day,i am the proud noona who able to be by side of her brothers.BUT DON'T WORRY ,SLOWLY I LEARNED TO COOP WITH THAT.
 Not to mention,my past relationship weren't as successful because of this,i think.When things got serious,i become so afraid.i hope short-arm namja could be the cure...he had been happy the last day.
but i am talking about the best----friends forever separation.Sometimes,i hate being forgotten by them,but as i watched Joo Won,i thikn by myself.In my perspective,they do seems to forget me...but do i think that in their shoes?For me,they are these person who leave ...without looking back.But don't i do the same?And what do i do to make them remind me as a good friend? Nope,i don't do nothing.And when we do have to start to move step by step,didn't i take the same steps also?As much as they leave me,didn't i leaved them the same way too?Worse,i made new memories as if the memories with them are forgotten when it wasn't true.Because of i met them, such a good friends, that i able to be a good friend to my new friends.The part of them in me that pass down toward my new 'chinggu' as warm love.that is that much they meant to me...every of my friends...if i want them to just stay in the past with our memory,it would be extremely selfish...because i will not be able to be there,it would be painful....really painful.i didn't want that.So,we have to move on ''on the same pace".Saranghae,chinggu ah....there always the good part of you remains in me....i'll always be a good friends....thanks to you...

     ps:Short-arm wangja,could you smile always...ehehehe..would be nice...